Aurora March 25, 2012

i watch the TV show Touch cause that is my life in some ways and i understand it and believe its true. i come into people's lives for a reason and its not by chance or a mistake its to serve a good deed that only i can do. Right now i am at a cross roads where i don't know who or where i will be next. i do know that where i am now living is only a rest stop. i do believe in a greater being of some sort that speaks to us in ways we may not beware of. i can feel that voice some times. Like when some one is in trouble and i call when they need me to or when they need help but lack the voice or strength to express it. At this point in my life i can tell you why i enter everyone's life that i touch, Like the reason i had a child was to pass on the gift to do this to others. i now know my son will grow up and do the same things for others as i have. i feel it in my heart and soul. My reason for being on this earth is to help people and that is why it is impossible for me to kill myself. i will not die till my task is complete. Every TV show that i watch teaches me a lesson and opens my eyes a little more about who and what i am. The TV show touch is to remind me that i touch peoples lives in a special way that only i can. It showed it to me first in a book that Amy had. The book was a road map of my and my choices. As soon as i took the info the book moved on too someone else its meant to touch. i now understand i had to go to Kerrville not to help Nikki but to help my grandma that was my reason that only i could do. The powers that be sent me Kate because i needed her help to complete the task. if i didn't help her drive to Alpine,ca she would have died. And if i did not live with Kate she would have never moved in with her wife again. If i didn't write that first letter to my dad's new wife they would have got together and my dad would not find his spirit and love again. i could write all day express how me being in there lives help them reach a better point in there's. its not about me its about them. i see that now. That's why i get  such joy from helping them.