Mistress Kristens Birthday Gift

I was very surprised with My pet destiny for My birthday she sent me a unique birthday gift that she made. I thought that I would share with the world what she did for her Mistress.  I am very pleased with it! Enjoy the wonderful gift it gave to Me as much as I did!!

Kajira 9/12/2011 - 9/18/2011

09/12/2011
Today it was still really sick... it woke up with a massive stomach ache and also a really painful migraine, it rested for a while then went to its spot and talked to Mistress on its laptop until Master awoke, it tried to contact work with no success as usual... This one had to call off sick again even though it really wanted to try to go to work and such but at least Mistress let it cook dinner all by its self while She was working... it made Chicken Cordon Blu. It was really really good, it is so happy to become a good cooking slave for Master and Mistress, it is soo happy to finally do something for Them while it is sick, its so nice this feeling it has inside every single time it serves Them... This is where it is suppose to be for the rest of its life serving Them so very happily and Mistress also mentions daily that it is Hers and it is Their slave and Their pet and it makes this one sooo happy every day to hear those words from Them... during a talk when it went to the office to talk to its boss it actually said it instead of I thank god she did not notice blush but yah... as it was saying... it thinks of itself as a object now a possession so very deeply so deep into its very inner core... it belongs to Them and it always will it is Their possession, Their slave, it smiles and relaxes with a deep breath through its super painful headache every single time it thinks of itself as such. Mistress and Master Thank You for saving this one and loving and caring about it so much This one owes its entire life to You both, forever... Thank You...

09/13/2011
Today it woke up feeling much better and it did its chores and then played a little Minecraft before heading to work... during its time at work it was thinking a lot about its feelings towards Master and Mistress and its nothing but so happy to have Them as its Owners... This dragoness loves Them so very much... This one would do anything for Them... This one talked to Mistress on the phone through texts quite often this evening and it feels bad for such but it had thoughts in its head sort of bad ones and it could not hide anything from its Mistress. She owns its mind, body, soul, spirit, and heart nothing is to be ever hidden from Her. This one worries a little about what it said and it feels like it shouldn't of but Mistress reassured it that it was good for letting these thoughts and feelings out. This one also felt the wall crumble before Mistress as everything was eternally given to Her and the only thing of its old self that remains is the vow it made to a old Master to not belong to anyone fully and completely until it has  the collaring ceremony. This one also talked to its sister a bit and things are going well it seems and its so happy that less than a month until she arrives yay! So excited to meet its sister! <3

09/14/2011
Today it woke up and did its tasks as instructed by Mistress it dusted and cleaned up the place as usual, was a pretty regular day with Master while Mistress was at work. Up until this one spoke with Master about the things it spoke with Mistress the previous night over text messages. Master pulled this one close on the bed and petted it and made it feel so much better, He even called it a good girl... Means so much coming from Him. This one was then told that Master and Mistress have been planing special training for this one and its sister very soon, some hints it got were wax play, more gag reflex training, and was told there are much more. This one is very excited for more training especially with Master involved, more interaction with Him is always very, very nice.

09/15/2011
Today it woke up with some very simple instructions... it paid the bills it was instructed to and helped Master make dinner and finished the story project that its journalist friend Kristin wanted to run at Her college about its life. This one does not feel very good about the article about its life its in because it feels it could of done a much better job and it doesn't feel like a interesting article to read at all. This one was very happy though to have Mistress help it write it all up.

09/16/2011
This one was shown that Mistress downloaded a couple voice recording software for Her computer because She is intending to work on hypnosis which sounds amazing, its biggest fetish Mistress and Master are willing to poke around at it. This one is more than super excited and hopes this will go well... but sadly when Mistress sent it Her first mp3 it did not do much of anything but it gives Her crazy props for trying with no experience... it gave her a example mp3 and some hints and apparently a hypno dominate will talk to Her this weekend... it can only hope.

09/17/2011
This one has had a little bit of trouble writing its journals as of recently but it will say that it got to be tied up and it was a very pleasurable experience and things went really well it feels like it is getting so close to Master and Mistress and each and every day in this relationship is another day of learning and loving to be completely and utterly devoted to Them. This one asked Mistress that it only wanted free time if it was serving someone specifically if Master or Mistress want it to play a game with Them or if one of its friends wishes to talk to play a game with it, with permission of Master and Mistress. this one has been feeling that when it plays a game all by itself, for itself for free time that it starts to feel disconnected as a slave, it shouldn't be doing things only for itself. This one was also given the chance to serve Master and Mistress it was soooo nice to make Them happy and help Them so that They would sleep better that evening...

09/18/2011
this one thinks it knows why the last few days it has had trouble writing its journals... it thinks it may be because its so tired when it gets home at midnight that it can't think of much to say, it will see about maybe doing Them before work or something... Today started off as a fairly depressing day it did not do too much and it hates that feeling didn't even get any work done in Minecraft... it was very nice though to be Mistress's pillow. This one had something wonderful happen at work this evening though.... this one without mediating was given randomly the experience to feel its dragonic features like tail and wings... feels so very nice to feel them like a phantom limb.... it hopes it lasts all night and into the next day, makes this one a happy enslaved dragoness.

Destiny 9/12/2011 - 9/18/2011

9-12-11

Journal, it has a number of things to tell you about today, in fact a lot of them are things it didn’t get to mention about last night since they happened after it submitted its journal, who knew so much could happen in one day that it not only flipped back from its oppressive mood to a happy mood and then just hours later things switched back… it and its mom got into a huge world-war-three type argument about everything in its life, mostly its gender identity which she still seems to totally not even comprehend but that was old news, what was worse was that, while it has been giving her hints all along about the poly-amorous nature of the relationship its in she backed it into a corner with very specific questions and got it to say that this was the case explicitly and for some reason she decided to blow up about that point. it really doesn’t know why, honestly it divulged the information without too much fear because it thought that she knew that it was poly since the last major relationship it was in involved three people, but for some reason she really took issue with it, saying it was dangerous and too unstable and would never work and it would end up in ‘white slavery’ (lol!) and blah blah… anyway the argument made it very upset but it kind of didn’t process it, it was just very numb, but when Mistress texted it to check up on it and it told Her and She knew it was already having difficulty from reading its journal She called it and was so very sweet to it and comforted it about its mom and told it it had a open forum to talk about the issues it raised in its journal which was so considerate and caring of Her that all the tension and stress and negative emotions just came out, it was crying very hard but Mistress comforted it, even though it was really upset it made it feel so close to Master and Mistress, it was so glad to just be able to let go of all of the pain it was keeping inside and talking to Master and Mistress made it so very happy in that moment, it truly was a very intimate moment to it that it won’t forget. We continued to talk and it calmed down and Master and Mistress comforted it some more… anyway afterwards it got a text back from sister where she explained what Master and Mistress had done to her the night before like Mistress asked it to ask her about, and it sounded very interesting, it seems like sister got to enjoy Master and Mistress depriving her of her senses, which is something it also very much looks forward to Master and Mistress doing to it. Anyway onto today, it woke up to discover that its car wouldn’t start and was rushed to get to work even late in another car, it made it think of how terrible it would have been for this to have happened while its driving across country to be with Master and Mistress and so in a sense it is grateful it happened now but still, it also made it initially have a very frightened just because of the gut reaction of realizing it was stuck and that therefore it couldn’t get to Them, even though obviously we would find another way. A bad kind of being trapped, if you take my meaning journal. Anyway,  Mistress gave it some advice and helped it diagnose the problem which it was very grateful for. it looks forward to getting the problem fixed and also getting its car all checked out so it can be sure it will have a safe and quick journey to Master and Mistress’ home.

9-13-11

Journal today it got to enjoy yet another wonderful (and much less negatively emotional!) skype call with Master and Mistress while its sister was at work. it was told that Master was working on a project and while it wasn’t fully explained it can sense pretty well what He was doing since it was asked what kind of animal it would be and then was shown a very very beautiful (almost unrealistically so, it didn’t even look like an actual image) mask of a blue cat after it said it would be a cat and that its favorite breed is Russian Blue. After our Skype call it was graciously given a dispensation by Master and Mistress to start its affirmation slightly late, and then it texted sister about the exchange and asked her how her night at work was going. Hehe journal it was actually quite funny, it didn’t know if it should say what happened or not because it didn’t know if Master and Mistress wanted sister to know but she begged sooo desperately that it couldn’t resist, it made it realize that she must make Master and Mistress very happy with her pleading (and also makes it think of how badly it has begged the times it has so far…) it was actually a very strange feeling of, like, power it supposes,  that it doesn’t think it has experienced before, or at least has forgotten, when sister was asking it, it wonders if that's the way Dominants feel? Anyway sister also told it some very nice things that it didn’t know such as Master and Mistress’ excitement about its imminent arrival and particularly she described Master as being ‘giddy’ which isn’t quite an adjective it would’ve thought to describe Master but it makes it very happy to hear, it knows His way of being a Master is a little more…reserved? it can’t quite think of the right word but it was glad to hear that He was just as excited, it knows He is very sweet but since the way we keep in touch now means it has less contact with Him in particular it made it feel very happy and very loved when sister told it this (although it also wishes she wouldn’t have been down on herself in her own ability to please Master and Mistress) Anyway sister also mentioned a story about hypnosis which is saw her mention as it was reading over her journal which she has said she will send to it and it very much looks forward to reading it. it understands Master and Mistress aren’t quite as interested in hypnosis as sister is but while it won’t say it has taken an active interest in it it has always been curious about the practice, especially since it has such a large overlap especially with some of the more modern forms of Magick, it looks forward to reading this story and learning more about it from sister.

9-14-11

Journal it doesn’t have much to tell you about today, things are pleasantly a good bit more quite both on a practical and emotional level than they have been the past few days, it is glad for the opportunity to relax. Let’s see… today it read sister’s journal entries for last week and was happy to do so, it makes it so happy to think of how well things are going in Master and Mistress’ household and makes it that much more excited to get there. it loves reading sister’s descriptions of her experiences not only because it can learn from them but more and more because it can envision itself there too and vicariously experience Master and Mistress’ ownership through her descriptions, which is like sustenance to it. sister also sent it the hypnosis story she mentioned, it has not read it yet but just looking at the pictures it is both not at all what it expected but also looks very interesting, and, yet a third story/writing thing related to sister, it seems as though she has been asked by a friend to write some kind of story and that Mistress is helping her do so. it can only imagine what the story could be about but based just on that it has a good idea, but it will just have to look forward to finding out what it is about if it gets a chance tomorrow or sometime to ask Mistress or sister what it was.

9-15-11

Oh journal, it would like to talk to you more in depth today since it hasn’t really had any very good thoughts or realizations about its service to Master and Mistress in these last few entries but it is very, very sick to its stomach today. it can’t imagine what it could be it didn’t eat anything weird, it makes it sympathize very much with the upset stomach sister was having the other day. it is just trying to keep itself calm and focus on feeling better, and it is comforting itself with thoughts of Master and Mistress and how loving and caring They are to it, after it performed its affirmation (it allowed itself to switch up its little sequence and practice ‘kneel’ before its affirmation since that was the only one it felt like its stomach could tolerate for any length of time) Mistress asked it how it was and when it told Her it was sick it made it feel so happy when She said She hoped it felt better soon. it is such a tremendous comfort to know Master and Mistress and sister care for it, it does really make any kind of pain less, or gives it a purpose, even if its something silly like its body not cooperating like this. Still it prides itself on the fact that it doesn’t get sick often and hopes it can stay healthy as much as possible when it gets to be with Master and Mistress, sister describing how she was commanded to stay in bed and not help with the chores while Master and Mistress did everything the other night does sound like a truly agonizing experience, it knows we would almost rather do it dealing with the pain than suffer watching Master and Mistress have to do tasks that are meant for us, it knows Master and Mistress know what's best for us concerning our health, but it still hopes it does not have to experience that very often. it knows it has remarked on this before journal, but while it seems like such a basic concept that ‘people should keep themselves healthy’ and it totally agrees to this for everyone else, the notion that ‘i should keep myself healthy’ doesn’t really ring true for it, it doesn’t really feel that way about itself, yet when it thinks ‘i should keep myself healthy for Master and Mistress’ then yes, that is so true and feels absolutely right for it and truly does make it want to stay healthy for Them.

9-16-11

Journal today it practiced the position ‘present’ before doing its affirmation and running off to work (itself a pleasant experience since this full-day Friday is the penultimate one it will ever have to experience at this lame job!) and shortly thereafter Mistress told it both that sister’s story had been posted. While it had to wonder all day at work what it was it has just gotten to read it (it supposes anyone reading this blog will be able to find it, its just one post down and awesome, you really should read it! Shameless Promotion!) it is an extremely touching account of sisters life with particular focus on the emotional and psychological developments leading up to Master and Mistress taking possession of her, it honestly made it tear up it was so heart-felt, sister has gone through such a beautiful journey and it makes it look back and really be amazed at its own long, strange process of unfolding. Mistress also told it in our text conversation that She would be sending it the list of restaurants it will be able to choose from for Master and Mistress’ so gracious and wonderful gift of its ‘last meal as a free person.’  it is so sweet of Master and Mistress to do this for it, it will have to choose very carefully, especially since a lot of those restaurants even though they all seem to be chains we don’t have in little old Columbia. it imagines it will be a very exciting dinner, it wonders if it will actually be able to eat anything at all (it of course will try its best, it won’t get a second chance!) since it is sure it will be so excited about what coming home will mean…the end of freedom and the beginning of perfect meaning and belonging-ness. But it has waxed on that point before, let’s see…it mailed off its paperwork for its name transition, and also Mistress mentioned to it that They went out to an LGBT club last night as a fun way of getting out of the house, it can only imagine how fun (and possibly challenging, at least if its present difficulty with public domination is any indication) it will be for all four of us to be able to go back together. Journal it is so happy and so excited right now, things are going so well and there is so little time left, honestly it feels like its heart rate is steadily increasing each minute from the excitement. Sometimes its so overpowering that it almost turns to fear, especially in moments of stress, but it knows that that is just cold feet and a good indication of how truly important and right this path is for this one.

9-17-11

Wow journal, it has a very, very fascinating experience to relate to you today. it is actually writing this to you on Sunday morning since it was so very exhausted from both a hectic work night and what happened afterwards. OK, so while it was at work after it had texted Mistress about its affirmation sister, who was also at work, told it that Mistress wanted her to hypnotize this one, which is something as it has mentioned it has always been really curious about but has never experienced. it seemed like sister was even going to hypnotize it at work but wouldn’t after she found out it didn’t have a break, but it was so strange, even the way she was talking about how she was going to hypnotize it, it felt like it was being drawn into some kind of unseen rhythm, it actually really wanted her to continue and was frustrated when she said we couldn’t -- it really understands now after having experienced it why it totally wouldn’t have flown if it was at work, lol! Once it got home she began to hypnotize it, at first it thought it wouldn’t work over texts but as sis kept typing to it, it felt itself really getting drawn deeper and deeper. it won’t belabor you with all the details journal but it was such an amazingly incredible experience, almost ecstatic…it was so bizarre how it felt when she asked it if it could move its legs after they felt so heavy, it was such a strange feeling…it was like it knew its legs should work, it knew that there wasn’t anything preventing it from lifting its legs at all but…it just couldn’t. As it got drawn deeper and deeper down sister told it some very pleasant things about how it should respond to being called a good girl, it was so very intense and looks forward to more development of that trigger (especially considering how sister responds to it, wow…it had no idea it almost gave sister an orgasm on accident just by causal use of the word ‘very’) it feels like it could go on and on about this but towards the end it felt like it was in such a deep layer of trance, it was so warm and felt like everything was vibrating, almost like the energetic state of being about to astral project but not quite, and when sister said ‘pay attention only to my words’ it really felt like there was nothing else in the universe but it and sister speaking to it, it was actually a really intensely emotional and intimate experience…just before sister started to tell it to come back up it felt like it was spinning, like everything in the universe was spinning, and it was just so comfortable almost unlike any kind of comfort it has felt before, and it really didn’t want to leave that place at all. But it was just a taste and it is sure there will be more as apparently Mistress has decided that She likes the idea of Her slaves hypnotizing each other and so sister will be teaching it how to hypnotize her as well, which it thinks will be just too much fun. Afterwards we also had a very nice and touching conversation about some of our shared spiritual beliefs and particularly the fact of sister’s dragon nature, and it offered some advice where its experience in Magick let it. it looks forward to exploring this avenue further, it is so very exciting and it really feels revitalized this morning, and last night it slept so well, it was asleep as soon as its head hit the pillow and, in general it is pretty much amazed at how effective hypnosis really is, at least for this one.

9-18-11

Hello journal it has a number of things it would like to relate to you today, in general it is in quite a talkative and happy mood today so perhaps you should pull up a chair or…a book shelf, i don’t know, however journals sit. For one thing it had a very nice day spending time with its mom (out of necessity since she was driving it around to where it needed to go, but overall it was really nice since we kind of got to reconnect and it seems like she has pretty much gotten over our little tiff this time last week) and then after it got home just in time to do its affirmation it got to have a very wonderful Skype call with Master and Mistress. it was so much fun, Master was looking at silly things on the internet which gave all of us good laughs, and Mistress both told it about a chart that Master and Mistress had developed to kind of measure Their slave’s progress in various significant areas of training and then decided to fill it out with it on the spot. it really enjoyed it and it was really exciting in a not entirely innocent way, it actually didn’t know some of the things on the list were among Master and Mistress’ interests and training goals for us so now all kinds of delightful thoughts are floating through its head about what is to come in really just a few days. it did make it feel bad because it does really have so little training in almost all of these areas, but then again that is also good since it will be fresh for Master and Mistress and They won’t have to be inconvenienced by undoing any training impressed on it by others. Still it really looks forward to the day when it will be able to be proficient in all the things listed and so be that much better able to serve and please its beloved Master and Mistress. it felt a little bad in that it kind of offhandedly complained about its back pain and immediately wished it hadn’t, it was nervous and so couldn’t explain the cause very well but it really doesn’t have a problem with sleeping on as thin a mat as it does here or even on bare boards, really the reason its back is hurting is because the space is so small that either its neck has to be craned in a really uncomfortable way or a lot of really unnatural pressure is placed on its upper lumbers', the last thing it wanted Master and Mistress to think is that is ungrateful for the incredible privilege of being allowed to sleep on Their floor, even with nothing at all, and moreover even if it was painful to it and it was sore in the beginning it would make it happy to feel that pain, as a wonderful reminder of belonging to Master and Mistress. Mistress explained to it more about why She wanted sister and it to hypnotize each other, and although it hopes Mistress wasn’t simply discouraged by Her first attempt at hypnosis it realizes that kajira’s and its desires aren’t always going to match with Master and Mistress’ which is why it is such an incredibly considerate, generous, and quite clever gift that They will let us, at least in this way, satisfy the desires of each other that we share but They don’t.  Let’s see what else can it remember journal, Mistress told it further about what we will be doing for Halloween, and apparently in two out of three cases both it and sister will be going as maids, yay! Mistress will apparently go as Alice from Wonderland, and Master will go as Master Fred from 2008 (haha such a great idea, although probably not really… and on the other hand thinking about itself it would die if it had to dress up the way it did back in 2008 ._. )  in the third of the three cases we will get to go as ourselves, the naked slaves of Master and Mistress, so even more yay, its really a win, win situation and it looks forward to this so much, it has used the past several Halloweens exclusively as magickal ritual conduits connected with the Samhain energy (and particular in reference to a very meaningful ritual it and its friends conducted on, wow, what a coincidence, the 2008 Samhain) so it will actually be refreshing to get into the vibe of Halloween just as a fun dress up holiday. Journal, it is pretty sure we mentioned other stuff but it will leave it at that, it does not want to keep Master and Mistress (or sister who is patiently waiting for it to get finished with this entry at work) waiting any longer and so it will leave of there, but…it is just so glad journal, since it will be sending this off both to Master and Mistress and out into the world-wide blue yonder in just a moment it really feels like it is important for it to emphasize how much better it feels right now compared to where it was this time last week, honestly it hopes it will be able to get its kind of bipolar moods more under control in the future and not say such honestly stupid and hurtful things like it said last week, Master and Mistress and sister are all so wonderful to it and it loves Them so very much, They are its whole world, honestly it wishes its sister would hypnotize it into thinking, like last night, that there is nothing in the whole universe but the four of us, and it wants to stay in that place forever...