Kajira 10/3/2011 - 10/9/2011

10/03/2011
Today was a decent day at first... it woke up quite late sadly and rushed to get its things done, when it finished the dishes and cleaned up a little in the bathroom it started the laundry and then went to the computer it brought for Mistress and Master to attempt to fix it from the problems that were coming up last night... Sadly that did not go well and it only got a lot worse... so it took a little while and got the computer to go back to a previous state and got a good Mal-ware detector and remover started hopefully that works... it then put the laundry in the drier and started to get ready for work, but sadly when it left for work it forgot to grab the laundry from the laundry room and it felt so utterly and completely terrible for what it did, it tried to contact Master but to no avail He has been sleeping in this morning and it had to tell Mistress as well as how sorry it was... it cannot believe it did such a thing and its sure not to do it again, Mistress will make sure of that when it gets home... Mistress its so very sorry Mistress. it belongs to You... You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience.

10/04/2011
Today it woke up and did the assigned chores and cleaned up a bit for wonderful Master and Mistress then it got ready for work and started its drive there when while it was getting gas it got a call from the manager for the sites area it works for... she said that the site it just started at got canceled by the HOA which was terrible it hear... it was out of a site and out of work..... hopefully soon, very soon it will have a new site because its sister will be here soon and we are moving soon... it needs really badly to be making money for the home... Well on the call they said they had another site but will call it back to see if they will take it... hopefully HOPEFULLY it gets it because it hates not working it feels like it did something wrong... oh well... So very very excited to see its sister for the first time and for her to be here with us finally! Hurray! First thing it does after it sees her its going to hug her until she can't breathe anymore XP. Later on it got a call about the new site to be there at 8am for duty and the interview its going to be security for SDGE... sounds not so great... oh well work is work...  Mistress it belongs to You... You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience...

10/05/2011
Today it woke up and went to its interview/ work for the first day with SDGE... OH MY GOD... They are bloody amazing! The boss is a lesbian and she understands everything this one is doing and looks out for the LGBT community and such nothing could be better. At this site all the employees are amazing and super crazy kind, all were super excited to meet it, and it got to shadow the boss around while she explained where things were, what to keep an eye out for etc, etc... its loving this job so much and is so happy to have better hours and better pay for its wonderful Master and Mistress... and OH MY GOD sister should be arriving soon!!! squeeeeeee can't wait!!! Been checking on her GPS tracker every chance it can get. So excited to finally have someone that lives with it on a equal level. So very very happy.... it really wants to be a REALLY good girl and a good slave to set a good example also because it has been fairly bad recently and feels really, really bad for the mistakes it has made as of recently... it feels like such a bad girl... sighs oh wellz sis will be here soon and things should go much better. Mistress, You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience...

10/06/2011
OH MY GOODNESS! its sister arrived and she is so very very wonderful but it can read her aura and its been reading nervousness and worry from her all day but it knows things will get good soon. We got to go out to red lobster for her celebration also for its birthday. The food was great and it got to speak with her tons while Master and Mistress talked while we were at the mall. it does hate seeing Them argue and it seems that They have only been arguing more and more each day. it was told though not to worry about it so it won't as it was told by Mistress. its sister was very sick and sadly at her celebration she had to excuse herself to the bathroom because she was still sick from her drive... all the stress, worry, lack of sleep, and driving really put a dent in her. it loves its sister so much and has found today that it only loves her so much more. Hopefully she will love it back because as sisters we will be together for the rest of the lives that we use in service to our wonderful Master and Mistress... Sadly would think of more to say but its so tired, and exhausted... Mistress, You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience...

10/07/2011
My god today was so exhausting but also amazing... so much happened! But first... last night was simply amazing in so many ways... first off it got to sleep with its beautiful, sweet and kind sister on a new AIR MATTRESS can't believe Mistress would give us a gift like that. it also hit off with its sister so well that we cuddled and almost crossed the line and almost went WAY too far... as we should ask Mistress and/ or Master's permission first. Hopefully... maybe... down the road Mistress will allow us to have a “sort of” relationship together as sisters who love each other under Master and Mistress. its being silly though it only just met her in person and needs to feel things out still here and there before it begs to have such even if it would ever be given such a chance. Well then it went to sleep so very happily then it woke up and went to work around 7:30am as Mistress instructed and when it got there it just walked around with its boss learning a few things here and there shadowing her basically again but later we sat down and REALLY talked about its relationship... it went amazing even to the point its boss called it a really good slave. Also that it was in good hands and very, very, very lucky. it felt so happy to call her boss and listen to her at work now that she respects and knows and even sees it as a slave now. Hurray... but then later when it got off of work it got to go home and see its Master, Mistress and sister again. That was so nice and then Mistress showed it, it and it's sister's new permanent public collars that will be worn at all times even under our regular training collars... its a pure sterling silver necklace with a little tiny cute lock in the middle that has a heart on it... Not only was it simply one of the most beautiful things its seen given to it but it also was a matching set with its lovely sister... That doubled how much it loved the necklace... Well after that it did not take long for us all to get down to business into moving into the new house... BOY was that EXHAUSTING and tiring sooo sore and worn out from all of that lifting and transporting and packing and unpacking... Mistress thankfully gave us all treats in the form of cherry ICEEs. Then later in the evening after we got most of the stuff in the new place and Mistress and Master used us together for the first time we got to be next to each other during our screams of pain and pleasure from the toys and cane and Master's dick and Mistress's clit. We are such happy slaves and hopefully this will last forever... Thank You Master and Mistress. You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience...

10/08/2011
Sleeping with its sister has been the best privilege it has ever been given and would be so torn apart inside if that was ever taken away but it would understand as Mistress is always right and when she wrong, she isn't she is merely mistaken. When it woke up today it went straight to work and work as usual was a amazing day talking to its wonderful boss Francis who has been so helpful and so understanding of its situation and even has been really loving towards it. She on a daily basis so far has told it how lucky it is to have such a wonderful Mistress and to be safe and secure from the awful things she has seen. She has seen the worst of the worst since she was marines for 17 years, jail for 6 years, and corrections officer for about 16+ years. She told it so many crazy horror stories and it even shared some it has seen/ heard of as well. We are hitting off so well and its been meeting so many people and learning so much about SDGE and tons of homeland security type stuff as well as it has to be homeland security certified before it can enter some rooms/ buildings in the facility. She lets it off early when it does good, and gives it lunch and buys it drinks and even offered to help it clean its car at the facility for free. its boss has been so wonderful in so many ways, maybe it can ask her to get Master a interview with Securitas. Today when it got home we finished moving everything that was left in the old apartment into the new one, and got “most” of the unpacking finished from there. its poor sister felt bad for having the biggest monitor in the house so she tried to trade hers with Master/ Mistress's and when they attempted to trade them Mistress's computer basically blew up on it self. itself watched its sister with so much worry because it knew exactly how she is feeling after that. she has to be thinking its all her fault when its not and Mistress is unhappy and stressed so she had to be thinking it was her fault through and through it wanted to beg to comfort her but it knew Mistress would soon because Mistress is smart and knows everything. Soon enough Mistress called her over and comforted her as She got her computer back up and running and this one had her help it finish up dinner so that she would feel more useful thus making her more happy, and it gave her a hug and told her everything is okay. it knew she needs it more than anyone else in the world at that moment. she needed someone to call her a good girl and for herself to do something productive so that she could feel like a good girl again... it knows how she thinks because it thinks the same way and if it did the monitor thing and that happened to it at the same time it would have been in tears as well.... Love you sissy this ones sweet beautiful lovely sister destiny. This one swears as your sister under Mistress it will protect you forever just please protect it too. Always there for you sis love you. Mistress Thank You so much for giving it such a wonderful sister and such a wonderful life Mistress it owes You the world and more Mistress. Mistress Thank You Mistress it loves You so much and will never leave You as Your slave... Thank You... You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience..

10/09/2011
Today was almost a blur, we worked doing so much today that not too much happened specifically, but a few things did poke out a bit above the regular work. Today its sister and it did the laundry and we talked TONS before, during, and after the work. we got to hang out, watch my little pony which its so happy that its sister enjoys... it hopes it can watch more with her its just such a wonderful bonding experience... its noticed that it has not played or done anything by itself in a long time including league of legends, it finds this quite nice as its always doing something productive/ social with its sister, Master and, Mistress. we had SOOOOO much laundry to do and so much cleaning up/ unpacking that we got dizzy a little and we have been eagerly awaiting to take a shower as we both feel pretty gross and unshaven. its sister and it have so much in common its nuts. it loves her to death and its dragon even sees destiny as her shiniest gem among the very big hoard she carries (the hoard is not material things by the way and only a small number of people know what said hoard is made up of.) its been shown nothing but bliss and happiness under Master and Mistress as Their pets together. it also cannot wait for work tomorrow its going to be awesome! its boss will probably be kicking its ass though because it did not do any what she wished it would do (she asked for it to do any among the: eye brows fixed, hair cleaned up from split ends, nails.) hopefully the cleaned up look and make-up will make up for that. Mistress says its ticklish which its pretty sure Master and Her don't actually know its “tickle spot” if it even exists ;). its loving the new home more and more and more ever since it moved in and would never wish to go back. Master and Mistress Thank You for the heaven You have shown it, please never take it away... You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You... You own its mind and body... You demand devotion and obedience...

Destiny 10/3/2011 - 10/9/2011

10-3-11

Journal today it had a very hectic day today, finishing packing and running around all day saying its last goodbyes to everyone, and though it got very upset each time (for different reasons in each case) all of that doesn't matter at all now because at long last it is on the road to Master and Mistress! it is so overjoyed journal it cannot even begin to describe how it feels, it is so grateful to Them for Owning it and being such a kind, gracious and loving Master and Mistress :) it is so glad that it will finally have a chance to express that gratitude and demonstrate its obedience to Them. But it is very late now journal and it has had a full day so it will say goodnight so it can nap and start early and get that much closer to Master and Mistress.

10-4-11

Journal today all day it has been driving to at last be at Master and Mistress’ feet. it is so excited, it has never taken a journey on its own so far from home and it is so excited to see the beautiful landscapes begin to change to lovely desert. it wished it had some interesting introspection about Master and Mistress and its service like usual but its mind is just overwhelmed with pure excitement…and nervousness. it was hoping it would get farther tonight but it is so tired, it is going to rest so that hopefully tomorrow it can make it all the way to Them or at least very close!

10-5-11

Journal it is very sad to report that it will not be able to make it to Master and Mistress’ tonight, it is feeling very tired and sick so it is stopping for the night in Yuma. it feels so bad it couldn't make it there tonight like They wanted but it hopes by sleeping some this travel sickness will dissipate and it will be fresh and rejuvenated to, at long last, after so many months, after so much hoping and wishing and dreaming it will be at the feet of its beloved Master and Mistress. Tomorrow is the big day!

10-6-11

it is now in Master and Mistress’ home, and it cannot begin to describe how wonderful at last being here is. it is so sad that it still feels sick today and unfortunately that has somewhat held it back from what it has been able to do, also it has made many, many mistakes today, as perhaps could be expected from finally being able to be at Master and Mistress’ feet, but it will keep trying hard and now has the opportunity to continually grow to serve Master and Mistress. OK…so it woke up to the news that Mistress had gotten a promotion, which it was so excited to hear, afterwards it drove across the desert, it was so excited and nervous, it was struggling with its upset stomach and was overjoyed that it was in the last stretch…it had to stop along the way since it almost ran out of gas and then it had to throw up, but afterwards it felt better and shortly thereafter Mistress guided it to Their home where sister guided it in and it was so happy to finally met her and then Master, it was told to take some medicine and a shower and then it rested for a short while, when instead of us picking Her up She walked home and it was so, so surprised and overjoyed that all of U/s were at last together. Mistress put on its training collar on it and She told it many things, later it was introduced to Master and Mistress’ implements of punishment, which was *extremely* painful, and then Mistress practiced rope bondage on it…overall it was just in bliss, it was so happy to at last be at Their feet and serving Them. sister drove us to Red Lobster for Master and Mistress’ wonderful gift of its last free meal, its dinner and drink were absolutely delicious, it is so ashamed that its stomach was still upset but Mistress told it not to worry about this, then we went to the mall and walked into many stores and this one had an absolutely wonderful time, it felt so at home with all of us together (although as this realization settled in its mind while we were walking it realized how immensely more comfortable it felt when we were home and able to be in private and so therefore more able to express its place in relation to Them. On the way home Mistress drew on a picture of its red-beaten butt ‘My ass’ and it made it happy, to know at last that all of it belongs to Them completely. Now that we are home again it is happily writing its journal for Them, though it still feels ill its better after it drank some water and cooled down and feels confident that it will be all better tomorrow. it knows it has made many mistakes today (particularly with its postures and with just learning the basic protocols) and cannot begin to even process the impact of everything that has happened today and what this moment means for it, all of these moments are swimming through its head, but it knows that now that it is at last with Master and Mistress and serving alongside sister that it can at last be where it truly belongs, and now everything is just beginning.

10-7-11

Journal it has had the most wonderful day imaginable today. it lays here writing this in pure bliss, its so difficult to form coherent thoughts. When we woke up after it got ready we had to wait in the old apartment for a while, and Master was gracious enough to let it play His favorite game. it was quite bad at it but it very much enjoyed it and loved how excited Master was about it. Then it drove Master and Mistress to the bank, and then They took it to a very delicious burger place…then we went to target and Mistress bought Her slaves these beautiful matching silver padlock pendants with little hearts on them, they are *so* beautiful and it is so incredibly grateful to Master and Mistress giving these public collars (which will actually stay on all the time with the training collar put on when we’re in private) we came back and Master showed it how to play league of legends, from there Mistress went and got the keys to the new apartment and we spent most of the night moving things, it was very tiring for this one especially since it was still a little sick but it was fun moving stuff and it and its sister teasing each other during the trips (sister has apparently decided to make a game of getting this one to make decisions, knowing how little we both like to make them, and honestly its quite fun…it will have to get back at her somehow >:) )so wonderful to get into the new place. When we did all we could do for the day we came to the new place,  Master made hamburgers for all of us and Mistress washed it, it was so very nice it felt so spoiled…and then afterwards Master and Mistress gave it the wonderful outfit They bought for it so long ago and it saw on the cam, it was so beautiful it loved the way this one looked when it saw itself in the mirror. Then…Master and Mistress put Their slaves into bondage, its heart was racing because it realized what was coming, and Master and Mistress made use of us and…journal it doesn’t know what to say, it is still floating in ecstasy it cannot think at all, it was so incredibly amazing to finally be used by Them, it could feel warm energy flowing all through it and orgasmic shudders and such blissful closeness and submission to Master and Mistress. it felt incredible for this one and it hopes it was pleasing to Master and Mistress…gosh, it doesn’t know what to say, it feels like it should say something, express even in some small way the incredible gratitude it feels to Master and Mistress for…for absolutely and literally everything, but its chattering analytical mind (as Mistress says) has so thankfully been turned off by its submission and devotion and complete possession-hood to Them. They have given it exactly what it always wanted, it loves Master and Mistress and its sister with all of its heart, it feels like it has died and is in paradise, there really are no words for what it feels, even if it wished there were.  There are many wonderful moments it forgot to record, it is being buoyed in a sea of perfect joy by Master and Mistress, and now that it has finally gotten into the water, it knows how deeply it wants Them to carry it to the ends of the oceans.

10-8-11

Journal, at the moment it is struggling to stay awake so it thinks it will have to be brief tonight, but there are still many important things it must tell you about. it was a little disorienting waking up in yet another new place again, but soon it got into the swing of things. We finished moving all the stuff and it was very wonderful to finally get everything in and start to get everything set up. Along the way it got to have many very fun interactions with Mistress and Master and sister…it was fun playing fetch for a second (and later when Mistress hurled a towel at long distance directly at its head it realized that she can be very dangerous with hurled objects, not that it didn’t already know She was dangerous, its butt is proof of that…) Mistress shared with it some of Her favorite music which it really liked, also it got to have a very illuminating and quite disturbing conversation with Mistress and sister that left it upset for a while (honestly, it wonders why we even refer to people who do actual abuse and torture and even mutilation and murder using the same terms our community has tried to ‘reclaim’ to represent the meaningful and deep nature of the M/s relationship) anyway it calmed down pretty quickly once it was able to put its mind back to moving stuff and getting things done, but then it got much, much more upset when it thought it had broken Mistress’ computer. Looking back, it really was overreacting, but it just couldn’t bear the thought to have taken away something She enjoys so much just by being so stupid, it hated itself in that moment and it was really, really scared and upset but Master noticed and told Mistress and then everything was all better (even the computer! maybe it was a negative energy field disrupting thing like it suggested to its sister 0_o)  but afterwards we all got to play a very fun game together (which it really sucked at but…it may have had something to do with being so tired, at one point early on it realized that it had actually fallen asleep and was starting to dream while it was playing and had to snap itself out of it)  Anyway, again it feels like it wishes it had something more meaningful to say, but honestly things feel quite different right now, in everything honestly but especially in writing these journal entries. it knows it will probably sound silly but it feels like it has been here forever, it can’t imagine its only been a few days, and whereas before being disconnected from Them it had to kind of read meaningfulness into our interactions and its primary method for doing so was its journal, now the meaningfulness is in reality and in every moment and every movement so the words are just useless and obtuse, but it will find a new angle to attack the entries from, it will not let you fall into disrepair journal. Anyway, it can think of little else to say for tonight so it will just say thank You again to Master and Mistress for everything today and always and say goodnight.

10-9-11

Journal, today was a fun day wherein we mostly finished up the last little things to get us fully operational from having moved, which was mostly doing the laundry, which took quite a while but it was a lot of fun to have sis show it where the laundry was and how Master and Mistress liked their things folded/hung up, etc. Then we just sort of hung out, watching Master and Mistress play star wars and then we played castle crashers again (which was a *lot* more fun since it wasn’t so tired, it thinks it actually did OK this time) Mistress petted it then a lot more closely than She has up to this point and it made it so, so very happy, it felt like the seams of its heart would burst…and then we watched some funny things and we made dinner and did the dishes…overall it had a very fun day today but again doesn’t really know what to say. One thing today that really made it think, just a few minutes ago was after Mistress was talking to the potential slave that almost joined us back when it was deciding whether or not to surrender itself to being Owned by Master and Mistress made its sister worry about what would have happened if she had not been taken possession of by Master and Mistress, and for one thing it made it very sad to hear what she was saying because she was obviously in a very difficult place when Master and Mistress found her, and like her it is so grateful that They found her because she said she probably would have ended up in a much worse situation since she probably would have gone with whoever followed through with her first, and it makes it so sad, especially having heard a lot more recently about how really awful some of these situations can be and how really Mistress and Master rescued us from potentially even life threatening conditions, it is so happy we are all together now, its heart feels so full now, it feels so very close to everyone in our little family, each in our own way but it makes it so content and realize how truly empty its heart was before and now how it is being filled with love to overflowing…it makes it so grateful that They own us and that we are now safe in Their care and have the opportunity and duty to give ourselves completely to Them, it makes it think back to its own beginning and how desperate it was as well and it also could have very easily ended up in a terrible situation, would have probably gone with the first person who even halfway seemed genuine, but then imagine this ones incredible luck that it was found by so wonderful and so caring a Mistress and Master who truly do care for us and are truly so sweet to us and now it can’t imagine how things could ever have happened any other way. it makes it think back to what it was kind of thinking on before in a much, much earlier journal, the concept which is kind of central to Thelema about the beauty and cosmic centrality of the chance meeting between the individual soul and its own inevitable destiny, and it makes it just in awe at the odds that it was found by Master and Mistress, to be able to belong to Them and serve by its sister, that out of all the infinite possibilities the one that was truly best for it is the one that emerged, and even though parts of it fought tooth and nail, thanks to Them it was brought along and now that it is here it knows it is safe under the care of Master and Mistress and ‘we can go anywhere from here!’