February 25, 2012

Hmmm... what to post. it enjoyed spending time with Mistress yesterday, it really looks forward to getting it's new phone battery, and... yeah. Not much new since it's last post, it took care of bills and such, that's about it.
Hmm... history. There's always so much to tell, but which part. It has bit of a story time at work tonight with it's coworkers regarding a few bits of non kink history, more growing up etc. Occasionally it is reminded of it's childhood, but it tries very he'd not to. it's mentioned before that it did not have a strong relationship with it's father, but it thinks it might clarify a bit of the history there.

The first day it came home from the hospital, he told it's mother that he didn't really want a child. And he kept that theme well throughout it's life. Growing up, it spent nearly all of it's free time playing with lego and adjusting the TV's rabbit-ear antennae. He was unemployed for more of it's childhood than not, and while he had nothing to do, there was still no fond father son time to be had. There was drinking, and disparaging, and by the time it was a teen he was cornering it and challenging it to physical fights.

Okay. Suddenly this whole entry sounds like so much whiny emo nonsense. it's going to cut the subject there. it understands that it is free to discuss things without penalty here, but it chooses not to wallow in this. it is going to hit the sack, with something funny in the background to get it's mind onto more pleasant subjects. Affirmations, bed, and maybe it will remember more dreams again. That would be nice.