February 15, 2012

it is sick. it went to uc last night and got prescriptions and then rushed off to work. it seems to have misplaced it's phone, it thinks at the uc in it's rush to get to work on time. it spent the evening isolated a few aisles over from everyone else, and is now going to sleep off the sickness, it has prescriptions ready soon and looks forward to feeling better. it has noticed that through it's daily affirmations it is starting to fall harder and harder into it's submission. it feels a knee-jerk reaction to resist this response because it is not yet trained\fully owned, but it has to work so hard to do that. it is such a conflict fighting internally for the urge to have a sense of self, but also having the natural response to essentially surrender that to Mistress' desires. it struggles with this concept, and rather wishes it had not learned so much as it has over the last few years, nor experienced most of that. it wonders if a slave can have seen too much? it will email Mistress and inform Her that this blog is completed and it will be in bed shortly after affirmations and after first prescription is taken.