Aurora March 19, 2012

i can't seem to find a way out of the loop i am in. i keep finding people that are out of my area forcing me to make a hard choice or a leap faith. Or they are married or mentally ill or i am the rebound. Or maybe i am curse and this is my cross to bare. i feel lost in a sea of choices. Some times i wish i could snap my fingers and go back to Chicago  and work out a way to come right back. Life was easier as a slave i did as i was told. i did not question. i did not have to worry about choices. it was simple focus on them and if they was happy i was happy as long as i did not think about my past and not being loved ever again.