Kajira 11/7/2011 - 11/13/2011

11/07/2011

Last night it got into a accident at work and REALLY hurt its arm... its so worried what will go down at work in the next few days, it really hopes the CEO of the company lets it stay working and it really hopes its arm gets better soon... it REALLY hates being unable to help or even serve at its full ability, it Loves its Mistress and not being able to serve Her hurts so much, so very, very much journal. This one is so very worried about its sister, as She is having some major issues being in this relationship, but it knows if She talks to Mistress that She will fix it, Mistress fixes everything... Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/08/2011

Today its still dealing with the painful arm injury and now its back and neck are hurting... it really hopes this doesn't turn worse. Spending time with Mistress and sister is always nice, but sister's aura really frightens it. Other than that, on its way to work Mistress saw it pulling its bag onto its shoulder and it did not wrench in pain, so Mistress looked at it like it was faking the entire thing... it was shocked... it was floored by this and terrified because it knows it does hurt, but sometimes when doing actions it doesn't, the pain is a on-off thing, either REALLY bad or not there at all... This one cried at work a little because Mistress must of thought it lied to Her... This one would NEVER lie or hide ANYTHING from Mistress... this one doesn't know what to say or do... Hopefully talking to sister tonight at work will help make it feel a little better... Hopefully Mistress doesn't think it lied but its just so worried that She does because of how She reacted... This one feels so lost when Mistress thinks such things. This one feels like a horrible bad girl right now, it knows it did not lie but Mistress thinks it lied so its in pain... a lot of pain... What did it do to loose Her trust... sighs... it will go talk to its sister and hope things are okay at home... Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/09/2011

This one woke up in the afternoon and apparently missed out on the HUGE argument according to its sister about Master re-arranging the house without consulting Mistress. Then when Mistress got home Master under minded Her... again. This one is so happy it missed all of that because that is its biggest landmine and why its dragon does not like Master very much... This one really hopes He either ships up or ships out soon because this one will have to end up leaving if Master does not fix His attitude or leaves... This one would hate to have to end up leaving Mistress, as it would be lost and confused and would feel worthless without Her... This one has devoted its life to Her now and She owns it... Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/10/2011

Today we went grocery shopping and it all went fairly well but something has been bothering it forever and it has had a lot of trouble not saying anything about it but tonight it did, as it is NEVER to hide anything from Mistress and Master, so it brought up its problem which was it was considering to leave the relationship if Master does not ship up, just got to hope things go well soon or else it will have to leave... Master please get Your job and be more mature, or just leave and let Mistress live happier without being under minded and argued with daily... Tomorrow is sister's birthday so lets put this aside and make sure she has a grand day! Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/11/2011

Today was a interesting day, a very, very interesting day. Today started off with sister's birthday which went so amazingly, something big came up though... When sister left for some private time Mistress decided to look on her Skype and found the conversation she had with Chazori, its other dragon sister. About her plans to move out and be released from Mistress as her slave. Mistress was so upset, She said she was only disappointed, and that She felt like she was lied to but it did not feel that way. Mistress seemed VERY angry and Her aura and tone and words were ones of anger, at least that is how it felt no matter what Mistress said... this one felt disgusted and ill for almost the rest of the day. When sis got home we enjoyed dinner and cake and it was so very, very much fun. After the event we gave her, her birthday spankings and that was a little fun, but then it went to go try out Skyrim the new game and then it heard crying coming from the room... it knew immediately what it was about and it about curled up and cried itself a little bit... it was terrified and scared and it felt so ill. When They came out it was a weird experience... its sister is now a sub, not a slave and she is now (D)estiny, not (d)estiny. She is not above it and she is still its sister but she is now completely and utterly a sub instead of a slave. This one is still confused on how it completely feels about this... it almost feels like sister was kind of forced into this situation out of fear and guilt, not out of honesty and how She truly feels. This at least is a trial period and we will all see how it ends up at the beginning of the next year... it wishes its sister to be happy above all else and its afraid she is lying about her feelings because of how deeply she came to it about her problems and feelings about this entire relationship... sighs... Only time will tell if this is now what She truly needs and she was honest about this choice and not coerced into it. This one is also feeling a little depressed because it feels it was not completely listened to when Mistress talked to it about its own feelings. This depression is because sister told it, that Mistress said, “kajira has decided to stay no matter what...” or something along those lines. To be completely honest it still is not sure of things and its still in a maybe state. This one cannot say its view one way or another until Master gets or does not get His job. The one thing though that is making it lean towards staying though is that Master during this entire event today was VERY, VERY MATURE and adult like and very forgiving, and kind, and sweet, and gentle, to Mistress, sister, and it.  This one was floored by His maturity today and it thinks its starting to warm up to Him a little... If only this job thing works out... Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/12/2011

Today there was a really huge event at its work its called Family Fun Day or Diversity Day. It was a day about diversity and all about the different parts of the world how each culture is different but all the same in their respective qualities. its boss did Africa. This one did not get a assignment but it was told to work the site and watch the cameras. Later on in the morning its Mistress, Master, and sister Destiny,  came over to the family fun day and They hung out and played in the video game truck and They ate some of the wonderful food that was provided. This one wished They stayed longer for the video but hopefully They will let it show Them the video later, it was a VERY moving and wonderful video called “Eye of The Storm” it was a documentary on diversity and showed it through a one Mrs. Elliot, who separated Her class by the color of their respective eyes. They quickly turned on each other and it really showed how powerful diversity is and how it affects every part of someone's life if They are on the lower tier/ bracket. When it got home it was allowed to try out Star Wars the Old Republic beta which was absolutely AMAZING. The game is amazing and it cannot wait to play the full version its sooooo excited. Hopefully it gets lots of time to play it again tomorrow after work... hopefully. Thank You Master and Mistress so much. Later on in the evening it decided it was time to give sister its special gift... The gift of a dragon soul. This one gave its sister a part of its dragon and put it inside her. This will help her be a little stronger and a lot more connected to this one. If she feels pain it will, if she is happy it will be happy it hopes that she really liked the gift because it took a lot out of it to give it away to a human... Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.

11/13/2011

This one went to work in the morning and had a pretty normal day. When it got back though it found out that sister was away at her Temple/ Church for her religion. This one was so happy for her as she has come a long way in everything, and now she is working towards becoming a major member of her beliefs. This one hopes everyone of her dreams comes true as Mistress's sub. Later in the evening though Mistress let its dragon out and it does not remember too much other than that she quite enjoyed the time out, but as it told its sister. When its dragon comes out she is usually quite, or VERY drained of energy mainly because of how she was brought out. How snowy brought her out though she was full of energy and life. This one thinks its because snowy described her traits and touched them on its body, it helped give the dragon a form to flow into rather than forcing her to fit into its human form. Things did go pretty well though and apparently the dragon rested besides sister instead of on top of her like she usually does, probably because of the part of her soul inside its sister now. Mistress You own it and love it as Your property. You care for and protect it. As Your slave it will submit and serve You. You own its mind and body. You demand devotion and obedience.